I picked a paulista (something or someone who is originally from the State of São Paulo) poetess to make you company today, because, well, it made sense to me!
Hilda Hilst was born in 1930, she had a degree in Law but it was her love for poetry that fulfilled 50 years of her life living in a small farm in the city of Campinas (which I’ll happen to visit this weekend, too!).
I Come from Ancient Times
I come from ancient times. Long names:
Vaz Cardoso, Almeida Prado
Dubayelle Hilst… events.
I come from your roots, breaths of you,
And I love you tiredly now, blood, wine
Unreal cups corroded by time.
I love you as if there were more and derailings.
As if we stepped on ferns
And they screamed, both our victims:
I love you small like one who wants MORE
Like one who guesses everything:
Wold, moon, fox and ancestors.
Say of me: You are mine.
|A younger Hilda|
While I write a verse, you surely live.
You work your wealth, and I work my blood.
You will say that blood is not having your gold
And the poet tells you: buy your time.
Ponder your hurried life, listen to
Your inner gold. I speak of another yellow.
While I write a verse, you who never read me
Smile when someone speaks to you about my verse.
To you, a poet is like an ornament, and you change the subject:
"My precious time cannot be wasted on poets."
Brother of my moment: when I die
Something infinite also dies. It's hard to say it:
A POET'S LOVE DIES.
And this is so large that your gold cannot buy it,
And so rare, that the smallest piece is so vast
That it doesn't fit in my corner.
Brazilian singer Zeca Baleiro, produced a CD with some of Hilda’s poems turned into songs: Ode Descontínua e Remota para Flauta e Oboé De Ariana para Dionísio. He invited important female singers to perform all the songs. Here's a track for your enjoyment.
|Zeca Baleiro and Hilda Hilst|
Hilda was seen a cursed poetess – she was often referred to as pornographic and obscene and shunned for a time by publishers. Bukowisky in a skirt, can you picture that? That would be Hilda. Her erotic work started in 1982 when she published A obscena senhora D (The Obscene Madam D, available from Amazon). In the coming years she would release other five books under the same label.
May this love neither blind me nor follow me.
And may it never notice me.
May it spare me from being pursued
And from torment.
From only being so that he knows me.
May the gaze not lose itself among the tulips
Because such perfect forms of beauty
Spring from the glare of shadows.
And my Lord inhabits the glimmering dark
From a clutter of ivies on a high wall.
May his love only make me discontent
And tired of tiredness. And may I
Shrink before so many weaknesses. Small and soft
Like spiders and ants.
May this love see me only in parting.
"My poems are born because they need to be born. They arise from inconformity. From the desire to surpass Nothingness." ~ Hilda Hilst
Today's challenge asks of you to write to inconformity. Go either political or social, open the newspaper or watch the news and find an issue worth turning into a poem. (I'd very much enjoy knowing what news it was.) If you don't follow the news, write about a local problem you'd like authorities to solve, or about a global problem, such as hunger or slavery. Link your poem below and don't forget to leave a link to The Real Toads in your blog. Happy writing! See you all on Monday!